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Monday, December 23, 2013
- @ 4:00 PM Every human wants to be born either talented or smart. I mean like who doesn't want to be more outstanding and unique than others right? As for me, I would love to be musically talented. But being the not so lucky person, I wasn't gifted with magical hands that plays magical music. If only I were rich, all this " not talented thinging" would not matter anymore. What I mean is, if i am rich, my parents would have started paying fees to music teachers for training me since like what, 4 years old? Lol. That would be cool right. Hahaha.
bye.
Monday, November 18, 2013
A month without maid @ 10:38 AM So maid went back to her hometown today and will only be back one month later. This mean that I will have to do all the housework and deal with my meal time all by myself. ): For a person like me who is used to having a maid being always by my side to help me do all the things, I've eventually grew to become a lazy ass. I got to admit that because it's the fact and that i have already notice it since forever. Yup, so it's gonna be a tough month and we'll just gonna see how it goes. Lazy person doesn't blog much. Therefore i shall end it here. Goodbye lovely asshole. See you in neverland. oh. prom is coming and i'm so not excited. Labels: xoxo Monday, September 9, 2013
Gaining acceptance @ 6:51 PM When one wants to be accepted by others, they will put in all their effort to be the best. However, doing too much doesn't means that you will get as much in return. Sometimes, you'll end up losing everything instead. Wasted effort and no one would appreciate it too. Maybe not doing anything would be better. Just maybe.. Labels: xoxo Monday, September 2, 2013
No school day. @ 11:38 AM I didn't attend school today due to hand foot mouth disease. Funny how i would actually get this kind of disease when the fact that i am already not a kid anymore. However i am not saying that older people would not suffer from it. What i meant was adults would have a much lower percentage to get hand foot mouth disease as compared to younger children. And i guess i am one of the 'lucky' teenager to suffer from it. Ha. This week is totally not my week. After few days of fever, sore throat, extreme headache, menses, and now this. Everything just want to attack me all at once. Now i am unable to attend school, which also means that i will be slower than others, meaning that i will need to be much more independent on my own studies, thus i will need to have a lot more self control to prevent myself from getting distracted. This is my biggest problem when i am studying. I can't simply focus. If i can, i wouldn't be here, blogging and wasting my time. I did tried to make a time table for myself, but it ain't working. I just do not have any self control, not independent enough, and lazy! How i wish i could change all my bad attitudes away and transform it into all good ones. (Haha i bet that is also everybody's wish.) Whatever it is, it still depends on me. Whether do i want to achieve good grades and to be standing on the stage proudly on the day when i receive the certificate next year, or to cry and be sad, feeling extremely depress about my pathetic results and blaming myself for not studying hard and well enough. I am the only one who can control my own life. To fix it, change it or to remain the same.  Labels: xoxo Friday, August 23, 2013
Getting what i deserve @ 7:15 PM As seen from the previous post, i have been very lazy for the past few months. And for that, i deserve the disappointing marks that i thought i would never ever get. I scored a B4 for Chinese O level examination, and a Merit for the oral. This is not what i want to have. This is really shocking and i do not know how to explain my feelings. Chinese is the easiest subject for me to score, and this is what i get in return.Seeing my best friend being able to score so well, and here i am, a B4 useless student. Ha.That is definitely embarrassing and life is just plainly unfair. I know, i shouldn't compare with anyone else because the real person that i need to defeat in this 'war' would be myself! But, i have lost all the confidence, and i actually do not know the reason for me to keep trying, to keep pushing myself and to keep hoping for a miracle to happen in my pathetic life. All i know is that i am a dumb person and nothing could cure my stupidity. That's right. Friends in school are calling me dense. Saying that my level of stupidity is lower than what he could imagine. But i don't take his words seriously.... until today. What's worse, when i told my results to my family, the feedback from them was " WAH WHY SO LOUSY!" "RETAKE!" and both sister started talking about their wonderful A1 and A2 Chinese results they scored in the past. Oh wow, thanks for adding salt to my wound. However, i will not be mad at them since they are right. I am lousy and that's the fact. Nevertheless, i will work hard. At least for a few more months until O level is officially over. Even though the road that i am walking on might be filled with many obstacles, i MUST never give up, and one day i will SUCCEED. Labels: xoxo Thursday, August 22, 2013
Hey! @ 9:06 PM Yet another day is going to end just like that. And guess what. I didn't do anything productive at all. So I decided why not start blogging again and kill time since I am really lazy to do all the studying right now. But the problem is, I do not know what to talk about. Maybe just random stuff that had already happened. Sounds great.
Basically, life has not been a good one since the start of this year. As a Secondary four student, we undergo a lot of stress from work, distractions and etc. And this would mean that I'll get lesser time to play or hang out with people! This is definitely a very hard year for me. But I always tell myself, life still goes on. Things will be over sooner a later, so do not worry and start studying. And well, the more I force myself to study, the more my body will reject itself from the books. And this have been really a frustrating matter to me as O level is getting nearer and nearer! I am really angry about myself after mid year examination because i have no idea why after that exam, i realize that my marks had drop drastically, and that really concern me a lot. I wanted to enter into Psychology studies after Secondary school, which is to get 9 points in order to enter that course, but will that be possible if i continue to act this way? Sigh. Life still goes on, and I would have to take what God would have give me in the future. I'll just take one step at a time and goes with the flow. Not forgetting to study hard too though. Haha. I am sure I will be strong enough to overcome all this. And I will prove it to anyone who look down on me. Watch out people, watch out. (:
Labels: xoxo Saturday, October 13, 2012
Bull shit. @ 5:03 PM Hello readers! It's long since I've blog. I'm blogging through my phone now though. So it's gonna be a short post. Well, as you are able to look at the tittle above, you should know how am I feeling right now. It's about friends again. I'm a lonely person. Yes there's friends around me in school but seriously, what are friends for? ): Friends are someone who could go wild with and feel really happy when with one another. They help each other too. Am I right? But why on earth I couldn't find someone like that in my current life? No ones there for me when I really wanna go out with them. Reasons? " err see first la. See how. " or " huh.. i already planning to go with who who who already leh " or "cannot leh. I got something on. Next time ok?" ( where obviously there's no next time ) See how frustrating and irritating to get those same replies from different people? Zzz. If I were to ask a hundred of them, for sure everyone wouldn't wanna go out with me. Life is so unfair. Why can someone have so much friends to be with and doesn't even need to worry about when or how will he or she be alone. Because of fame? Okay then I'll admit I have zero fame or popularity in school cause I'm really ugly an loud person and that no one wants to be with me. I'll accept the fact. But even my own current friends, and even primary school friends doesn't want to go out with me. Uhh. I wonder how horrible am i really am in their eyes. Can't imagine it. Sigh. Sometimes. I wish school is forever. And there shouldn't be any holidays. Because once I'm free, wild thoughts come approaching me like monster. Whereas in school , I'll be able to concentrate in school work instead. How wonderful. I wouldn't have to bother about this worry about that. Life would also be better. Okay that's it. It's all about my ranting. But if you're able to read until here, thank you. Haha. See ya real soon then. Good bye! Saturday, August 25, 2012
We are never ever getting back together. @ 11:51 AM Hola. Back to post since it's my brother's birthday tomorrow. Just wanna say a very very happy birthday to Dennis, and sorry for all those scoldings i always gave you. I know you don't like it too, but you know it's for your own good. Hope you'll getting more mature as you grow older. Haha. Love you! Saturday, August 4, 2012
You're wanted. @ 7:39 PM Hey people! Hope everyone's doing fine. It's CA week now, so that explains why my blog is so quiet. There's not much stuff going on actually. Days pass really fast this year. Just a blink of an eye, and it's August already! Soon, O level will approach. And Dang, we'll be all sitting for the national examination. Afraid? Of course! Who wouldn't? Haha. (: So, did fencing last Friday. It's fun, and funny! Stupid stuff happened to my brother, and it embarrassed me so much. (well i guess he embarrassed himself much more.) I was pretty angry too though. He made me run up and down up and down around the school. Argh. But, whatever. Just take it as an exercising for me. Take it as if i'm doing something good. -convincing myself- Just smile. (: Hmm, as said earlier on, CA is ongoing now, and thus my usage of pen increasing rapidly. I'm so broke already, and yet have to buy pens again and again.Well,it's not that i'm really poor/ broke that i couldn't afford buying it, it's just that the effort wasted on going into the shop over time that annoys me. Yep, you can tell me to buy it all at once, but.. ai ya, who the hell buys so many pens at one time? And the fact that some pens doesn't even allows me to finish using the whole ink thinging, when there's still so much ink left. That's really a waste of money! $.$ Yes yes, i'm a cheapo la. i just wish pens would just drop from the sky, or maybe....  even from my hair? (: Haha, i know that's random la. But, TEEHEE! This song hallelujah by Kate Voegele is amazing, Try listening to it if you want to! ^^ Goodthebye! Stay pretty and SMILE! (: Labels: xoxo Thursday, July 5, 2012
Sorry, do you mean stranger instead? @ 4:38 PM Best friend. That's what i wanna talk about today. Let me ask you, do you agree with me that a best friend should actually care for each other and help out when one is in need? Do you also agree with me that no matter how tough things had happened, best friends still stays by your side? Yup, sadly to say, mine doesn't. (: Not gonna mention who is who, i'm just gonna post it the way i want it to be. So yeah, I've found that this person is starting to drift away from me. She gets her life, and i get mine. We stop going recess together and hardly talk unless we are having the same lesson. We get fierce and talk loudly at each other, almost gonna end up fighting. Always ended up being in a really terrible terrible state. ): Saw her being with other friends, and her smile seems to be brighter than ever. At least brighter and nicer when she's with me. That's the most hurtful part. To be honest, sometimes i really detest you. Hoping you would just get out of my life or something. You make me mad.So mad. Then make me like you again. It's like fooling me around. I want to hate you. You make me feel useless, alone, and unwanted. But who the hell would hate their best friend, or even if it's ex best friend..That's being really evil. I don't know whether if it's me that have change, or are you the one who have change. Everything seems so different between you and me. Or is it just me. Ahh, i'm so confuse, Teach me. ):  Labels: xoxo Thursday, June 28, 2012
Menses. @ 8:02 PM Fuck. Bad day today in school. Monday and Tuesday was fine, but from Wednesday onward, it sucks. Sorry for using a bad word right at the start, but it's the only word i could use to really say what i feel. ): Okay, as what the tittle on top says, it's menses day. -.- Fuck it. Hate having it especially when i'm in school. Can you even imagine how painful it is back then today. Tolerated it for the whole freaking day, and it just spoils everything. Can't even concentrate in lessons, and i totally wasted my Chinese lesson. I did nothing, but to chill myself out and relax, not think about pain, while others complete their essay. Thanks Mdm Loo for being so understanding. She allow me to rest. (: Okay, i even puke during the lesson. (In the toilet la) I swear i feel like dying that moment. I even brought medicine to eat, and it just cause things to get worse. Now i don't know why both of my eye lids feel swollen. No different as compare to a goldfish. Idiot. Finally feeling better after Math lesson. Kns, it's the last lesson, but at least i'm better. Sigh. My day just ended like that, feeling like a fool in class. Everyone saw my fucking weak side. ): This happen a lot of times to me before, but this time is the worst of all. So much cold sweat around my whole head. And i'm shaking . My hands were shaking badly. Thanks to those who cared for me so much, Especially Sheryl, Jiamin, Brenda, Weihao, Yuxuan. They really help a lot. (: That's all . I'm ranting like an old lady. Here's a photo taken few days ago. TEEHEE!  Labels: xoxo Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Louder. @ 12:04 PM Basically, I just came back from the Cambodia OCIP trip, that was held on the 3rd to 8th June. Oh My Gosh, i'm telling you,it's the most awesome thing that have happened in my life so far.The trip was fun, obviously. And six days just past so fast.): Miss the Kids in the village already. Oh, i swear there's a lot of handsome guys too! Muahaha. -tikotiko- 
Tada! First nice guy I spot. :$ I smiled at him once, and he smiled back every other times whenever i turned my head to him. He smiled shyly. Hahaha! -breathe in breathe out- Then before I go, I asked him to take a photo with me, and he AGREED! MISS HIM BADLY.
Teehee. Second nice guy. :P He didn't really smiled at me as much as the first one. I asked to take a photo together, and he AGREED. (: Before we left the school, I HUG HIM!! Of course, he can't reject me right. :P So we hugged. He smiled at me one last time and said bye to me before i went into the bus. :'(
There's one more, with pac some more. But i didn't went to take photo with him. x.x
Random photos that i like the most:   More on Facebook. (: Building of toilets.  
 
We went killing fields too!    
More on Facebook. Well, you know, this scary place was once a school. Now it turns into a killing field. ): They torture people so badly. The skull above, yes it's all REAL. ):
What we had done to the bed before we leave the hotel.. 
 
  
If there's fun, nothing is wrong! :P
In the plane!
Teeheee. That's all. (: Overall, it was AWESOMEEE. ^^
Labels: xoxo Tuesday, May 29, 2012
All over again. @ 5:16 PM Hello! I'm back here posting random stuff again. as usual. Haha. Nothing much to talk about actually. Oh Yes, About my results. It sucks la. Not even 1 A1. A lot of B4 and C5. But overall, I'm at the position 13among the all the 43 of us. That's quite bad already.My L1R5 score is like 25 and my L1R4, 20. Must aim to score better next time. The score for the course that i want to take in Poly is only 10. Fuck. That's a lot more to work on to reach that superb high marks i aim for. Don't call me crazy, because i dream big. (; Studies stuff aside now. Er, what else... hmm, Celebration for my sister's birthday had just ended few days ago. Fun, tiring, yes.But it is the process through preparing the party,like putting up balloons, decorating the house, that involved most laughter. Because everyone in the house is helping out, including the maid okay! (: Ahh, good times good times. :D We had 2 session of buffets too. One for lunch, another for dinner. Yum yum. Forgot to take the picture of the food for the 2nd buffet. Was busy eating away anyway. :B So, here it goes: 
Buffet!        Tada! Ballons. (: That's all. Didn't took much photos too, more will come once my sister posted it on Facebook. :D Stay tune people! Labels: xoxo |
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