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Monday, July 4, 2011
Afraid. @ 10:44 PM My heart felt so numb. I can't feel anything anymore. I'm all alone here. With no one to rely on.. I'm so afraid , one day, I might just fall , break down , and never gonna wake up again.. Everything's going so fast , and I'm trying to catch up with time .. There seems to be so much to do and I felt that I'm becoming weaker than ever.. I wanted to go out and join in the fun with dearest friends. But, my mind just stop me from doing so .. I don't know what have gone wrong .. I just felt a feeling that could never be express out just by words.. No one would understand this feeling.. The feeling of being so near to death. What is this. I don't know.. I just wanted to be happy again.. If meeting Joshua in the first place causes me to change into this kind of monster, then I think I'm gonna leave him .. I have no one to blame , but myself.. Blame myself for the act. If only I hadn't talk to him .. If only I hadn't step in to his house .. If only I hadn't hear him sing.. Its all my fault.. I cause all this.. Love ? Its just a hurtful thing. I'm trying to get rid of it already. Friends ? They all seems go be happily with their own friends. They don't need me. I'm just being a clown in their eyes.. Sometimes, I do wonder. Why am I such a trouble maker.. Yes I am. I know. My laughters annoyed Valerie. My attitude irritates Chia Chen. And my everything , just kills everyone.. I'm drifting apart from the world. I'm an outcast. I'm a louser. I'm such a failure. I make people hates me.. I don't know why I'm having such low self confident.. I'm just a wasteful resources in earth. Labels: xoxo |
Henno.
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I'm awesome. Sweet 16. 2511♥. I'm studying in Boonlay Secondary. In a crazy and wild class called, 4E5. I can joke, i can be friendly. But once you irritate me, you will see how fierce i get. Hate me, shoo. Love me, stay. I write what my heart says. Therefore, if you wish to know me better, stay tune. (: Affiliates.
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